As the year ends.. i leave with not a heavy heart but a heart to live a life pleasing to God but also I live my life for my dad.

Many of you have heard that my dad passed away on december 11th.  As heartbreaking as it still is.. my heart rejoices that he is home with Jesus. I don't know how I am making it through and I think people don't even think that I am still mourning or grieving.. but I am. And sometimes that is pushed off as anger and resentment towards people. Which isn't healthy. I am still learning how to deal and cope with the loss. On the outside I am actually doing fine.. but in the inside.. there is work to be done.

I started a blog 2 weeks before my dad died.. I will update that soon. here is the site http://myfightfordad.blogspot.com

Thank you for your love and support during the last few months.. I know that without it I wouldn't have made it through..

Thank you Jesus

1. being excited and passionate about my Job
2. Prayer meeting.. praying and being prayed for..
3. Friends to vent too
4. Friends who understand the stress I am going through and allow me to fall short during these times..
5. My soccer team.. who didn't allow me to played injured.. even when it meant they were one man down! GO TEAM!
6. Billy helping my dad out a lot more than I can ask of him..
7. A tough week possibly this week.. but God reminds me to lean on him
8. Going to the Advent home and talking and knitting with the girls while billy cooked yummy dinner for them =)
9. Being busy at work today!
10. my group of friends.. turning 30!.. WOW hehe here we go!
11.wedding planning is getting better =)
12. My dad commenting on what wedding dresses he likes hahaha
13. Shopping with Sarah
14. Seeing my old co workers.. =) i miss them
15. That my wedding planner is a dear friend.. and that she is so talented that she is even in magazines.. I am so blessed to be in good hands..
16. getting to know co workers better
17. the power of prayer from friends .. it has been a blessing
18. being financially stable..
19. getting an extra does of patience.. =)
20. being able to be there for my dad.. even when it is hard some days.